The Ballad of Love and Hate

The Stanley Kubrick of bloggers. Photography, tattooed girls, and nerd culture is my thing. @RolandSlinger on twitter. rolandslinger@me.com

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Permalink Tumblr Crushes: whyrywhy betterversionofme nautimermaid shitoutta-luck sexvignettes anonygirlx antiliasback thegirlsfromlastnight thejohnblog There isn’t much I can say about this list that my heart clicking hasn’t said.
Permalink What’s in a name? I saw Jami saying something about judging people for their dumbass name and here’s where mine came from (if you read this before, please skip). Once upon a time in 2008, I was going through a split with my wife. I was living downtown in San Diego in a small apartment and pretty much attempting to drink myself to death. I was the one that had spurned the split so it wasn’t because I was distraught or anything, I just didn’t know who I was without her. She’d been a constant in my life since I was 16 so I really just missed my life. I kept none of my former friends, was lonely, and spent a lot of time at the bars or drinking in my part. I was 29 at the time, and vowed that if I felt the same way, I’d throw myself off the Coronado Bay bridge on my 30th Birthday. One day it had been super rainy in San Diego, it was a Saturday, and I was drunk by 10:30 just crying in my apartment. I decided to look at my collection of books. I found one that I had had that my dad had recommended and hadn’t read yet. It was called “The Gunslinger” by Stephen King. From the very first line I was hooked: “The man in black fled across the desert, and the gunslinger followed.” I spent the rest of the weekend holed up in my room reading the book. After it was done, I found out there was six more books, and my quest was set. Over time I learned of Roland and his Ka-tet (his companions), about the order of the Gunslingers, and what it took to be one. I wanted to be one. Badly. So, I set into motion my path. I started getting up early and riding my bike to the harbor to see the sun rise. I didn’t drink as much and took it down to a casual level. My body was more in tuned with my mind. I looked up to Roland as a guide as he looked for the Dark Tower. I didn’t know what the Dark Tower actually WAS. I think any reader doesn’t when they embark upon this journey, but I think it’s meant to be that way.  My Dark Tower became my happiness. As long as I walked the path, I’d get there. I wasn’t happy yet, but I knew myself better and was listening to my own inner dialogue as I listened to this new person telling me the correct steps. I quickly forgot my need to commit suicide. By December of 2008 I was mentally sound. I still had a ton of demons, but didn’t get figure out how to get rid of it. Enter twitter. I’d always been into comedy and my friends always found me funny. I was actually evolving in my humor so once I found that and more importantly a community of others that did that, I was reeled in. And for my login I chose @RolandSlinger. Within that community, I found a way to get some of the dark seed out of me and it actually helped to bring balance to my life. My name is a sign of my change and always reminds me to look toward the Dark Tower in my life and keep on that path…
Permalink Tumblr Crushes: nautimermaid betterversionofme ruthakers snowness sinxo shesaflightrisk sammiwilcox23 sweetsteffy motherrose
Permalink Thems be my crushes. Sorry, I don’t have the fancy missing-e thingy at work so I can’t give you links but it’s tagged. I must say I like and love everybody here. This is the first perfect list in a long time.
Permalink Tumblr Crushes: sweetsteffy nautimermaid sweetnlola titsandsass jakefogelnest nevver ericarosie cleapow cracked Look at that! Jakefogelnest is having all these issues with people saying his blog sucks because he made fun of this new fad called “sea punk”(?) and out of the 415 people I follow, he’s in like the top 5. This is sea punk: As you can see, it’s shit. Please join Jake in his movement that “Sea Punk isn’t a thing”.
Permalink Tumblr Crushes: sinxo luckyshirt whyrywhy nautimermaid recleagueallstar misscook celestinelea verlieren shortsandstockings The deathmatch begins…
Permalink Check them out. I think they’re awesome.
Permalink I love them more than you.
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Permalink Crushes. Niki’s cheating the system!
Permalink The stuff.